When you only get a little bit of something you crave, you yearn for more of it. It doesn’t have to be vile, it can be innocent. When you know you have no control over the next time you’ll be near it because it’s been years since you had the pleasure of being around it, is when psychological damage occurs… and your mind dissolves… and your sanity fades away..-leeantoinette
which I found beside the river,
was glittering and pointed.
I picked it up, and said,
“Now, it’s mine.”
I thought of showing it to friends.
I thought of putting it—such an imposing trinket—
in a little box, on my desk.
Halfway home, past the cut fields,
the old ghost
stood under the hickories.
“I would rather drink the wind,” he said,
“I would rather eat mud and die
than steal as you steal,
than lie as you lie.” Mary Oliver, The Arrowhead (via arpeggia)
Fear doesn’t exist when you’re heartbroken. All the risky adrenaline activities you used to fear when you were sane are looks as safe as walking two feet on the ground. Everything is blocked out and in that moment you look/feel like the bravest person in the world. - leeantoinette